Day 12 – somewhere in limbo. Perhaps.

Sigh.  Starting this cycle from deep in the countryside, we were not as heavily monitored as city folk would be.  Throw in Easter and all those days that doctors offices are shut and post offices don’t run services (therefore tricky to get your hormone levels checked by the clinic), and you have potential for issues.  Which is what we have now.

The clinic never called me back on Wednesday afternoon because they didn’t get the blood yet.  I came up to Perth Thursday and dropped into the offices at 10.30 am and requested a new blood (out of normal hours) which they did and processed that afternoon.

Those Thursday bloods showed my estrogen levels at lower than 150, so I have upped my puregon from 50 to 150.  Re-test tomorrow (Saturday) and no mention of ultrasound for me.

Donor’s Thursday (and also first) bloods showed her overstimming, so they have stopped her gonal F and she was supposed to go in for an ultrasound today but she got the time wrong (!) and they had finished the ultrasound sessions by the time she got there, so she’ll have to try for tomorrow instead.  I’m not quite sure how she could misread the hours – it’s the only appointment she had for the whole day, but there you are – things do not always go smoothly, and as I have been trying not to micro-manage the process, I just have to let that one go through to the keeper.

I am hoping to catch up with her tomorrow at the clinic.  She does not have a mobile phone, and has been staying somewhere out in the hills at a house where the owner doesn’t answer the landline.  (Now she is camping at a music festival for the weekend and is totally unreachable). When she has called me on my mobile for updates, I have been driving and had to keep the calls short.  So I have patchy info at best.  Plus I think she doesn’t really understand the jargon/lingo, so when she told me that transfer might go ahead Monday or Tuesday, but potentially not at all because she was overstimmed, it didn’t make sense but I wasn’t in a position to interrogate her (due to being in traffic and not wanting a $500 fine for talking on the phone).

I can understand why, if she was also the recipient of embryos, that they would retrieve eggs and freeze the embryos rather than transfer them, due to OHSS risk.  But would they not retrieve the eggs at all?  That sounds odd.  And that’s not transfer, that’s retrieval.  And how could transfer go ahead on Monday anyway, when they haven’t even retrieved anything yet, because the embryos still need to grow to three (or five) days, anyway.  If she was up with the jargon, she might have asked “Do you realise I am a donor, and does this then still apply?” So it sounds like I need to talk to someone who has a clue.  Which I will try to organise tomorrow morning.

It was my intention to be very hands-off with this cycle, just to prove that I could take a step back from my control issues and let things run.  But I’ll admit, I do feel very out of the loop and right now not full of confidence with my clinic.  On the three occasions I have spoken with them in the last few days, they have said “So, you’re donating?”  No, I am the recipient.  Where are you getting this erroneous idea from?  I hope to God at least my Doctor knows what the fuck is going on.

I think I’d feel a little better if I did too.